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Jun. 19th, 2011

12:01 am - Time Is the Answer!

Seriously, babies take tons of time. I am sitting here having just nursed my sleeping bambino. Will he wake up any second and demand more milk? Yes, he will. Will he cry? Most def. Will he wake up if I try to put him down for a nap instead of holding him? You had better believe he will. In the evenings he has this kind of pathetic cry that makes my heart sad. In the morning he is usually a lot happier and easier to appease. I hold him as much as possible because it seems to make him feel better. Sometimes he smiles and coos at me. That makes my day. Oh, he just woke up . . . more nursing.

Current Mood: blahblah

Jun. 16th, 2011

03:06 am - Baby

I had a baby almost a month ago. Things are going very well so far. He spends most of his time eating and a lot of time sleeping. The rest of the time he's pooping and peeing. And growing. I'm amazed at how fast he is growing. He's a very handsome boy. I'm a very happy mother.

The only profound thought I have on child rearing so far is this: You can prepare yourself financially and materially to bring a child into the world. But you cannot prepare your heart for the way you will feel about this new life. I never knew I could love someone so much. It's indescribable.

Current Mood: enthralledenthralled

May. 15th, 2009

01:24 pm - How Much I Miss You

I have had time off from school for a couple weeks now. I got my grades a few days ago. They were not bad. They were better than I expected despite being the worst semester GPA I've ever had. I aced one course and . . . passed the other. I will be taking College Algebra this summer to prepare myself for real Calculus. I guess I don't actually need this much higher math for what I want to do with my life now (become a Physician Assistant and this time I've made up my mind). However, I am a driven, motivated person and I want to take the higher math. Call me crazy, call me an overachiever, call me strange, abnormal or academic. I have wanted to learn Calculus for years and I'm going to go through with this plan even if I have to retake courses or study 20 hours a week for one class.

Which brings me, rather indirectly, to my real topic of posting. It's kind of a riddle actually. I miss blogging and online journaling. It's something I have enjoyed since I started. I think some of the new fads have taken their toll on my writing motivation. I look around and I wonder what this whole Twitter craze is about and if I am missing a boat or two by not jumping on the bandwagon (not to mix metaphors or anything). I don't really want to spend time writing short sentences about what I am doing all day or curt, impressive phrases for the benefit of a host of adoring fans. Twitter sounds kind of tedious to me. It's a medium for the narcissistic if you will. Or if you won't. I'm just not interested. But then I haven't tried it. Maybe I'd have fun with it. Maybe it's dumb of me to criticize before I join the club. I like Facebook after all. I do get bored trying to think up funny things to say that I am doing on my Facebook status. I also get bored reading other people's status messages. Anyone have thoughts to add?

I miss Smallville also. Craig and I had to quit watching because I had class on Thursday evenings and we didn't feel like bothering to get a DVR or something like that. I am okay with the arrangement. We will get the DVDs in Sep./Oct. and that will be that. I'm sure the season finale was yesterday (or next week). For me there is/was no point in watching it. With Smallville you have to keep up. If you miss an episode you've missed something important to the storyline.

The same goes for my writing. If I miss a few months of blogging chances are that I have missed out on writing many interesting thoughts that I would have at least enjoyed writing (not presuming that anyone else would care that much as that's not why I blog). I get into a groove when I write. Moments come, I write what I am thinking about. Then the moment is gone. If I do not write while the subject is in its moment then my chances of actually writing about that subject are almost nonexistent. My muse is finicky. Probably not the best muse to have around, but what can I do?

In short, things are going pretty well lately. My next class starts at the end of this month and I have many things to do before then. Perhaps if I keep some sort of record I'll be better about getting things done. Not that I haven't been crazy productive lately.

Current Mood: discontentdiscontent

Mar. 26th, 2009

08:31 am - Alive and Well, Sorta

Lately I have missed my livejournal account. Hence, I have returned. This time perhaps for good. We shall see. I have had a tough time keeping up with anything regular of late. I am in classes three nights a week. The other evenings I mainly study. It's kind of intense to say the least.

Spring has come to Iowa and with it the tornado season. That reminds me that I should reprogram my weather radio sooner rather than later. I moved to a new place and still have not fixed that little problem. It's good to stay apprised of severe weather situations in states like Iowa, Nebraska, Kansas, and Oklahoma.

I am taking a Precalc course and not doing very well. The annoying thing is that I understand what's going on and I do fine on the homework. It's the tests where I utterly fail. I have always had problems with math tests. It makes me wish I had had a math tutor when I was in high school. Either way, Precalc is a whole different ball game from Algebra. It's real higher math (or the beginnings of it) and it just takes longer to understand and practice. I am very glad that my teacher is giving us extra credit. I may yet finish out the semester with a C.

My final and biggest news would be that I am planning to go back to school to be a Physician Assistant. Yup, that seems to be the actual decision. It's not set in stone, but it sure looks like the best fit for me.

Current Mood: pensivetaciturn

Dec. 22nd, 2008

07:14 pm - Sinuses

This morning I awoke with that special feeling. You know, the one where it feels like somebody punched you in the face and your eyes are going to push out of your head any second. Yes, sinusitis. So, trips to the doctor three days before Christmas and all. Such fun. Craig, of course, gave me the sinus infection in the first place, so he had to go in and see the doctor as well. Now we're a happy family on antibiotics.

Happy Holidays world.

Current Mood: groggygroggy

Sep. 13th, 2008

02:35 pm - Hey

When did my livejournal start displaying advertisements? I don't remember saying that was okay.

Current Mood: irritatedirritated

Aug. 21st, 2008

08:17 pm - Wah

I'm very busy moving stuff. Craig and I will soon be in our first house. Exciting stuff. But also extremely time consuming and exhausting. After the move and a good 24 hour long nap I'll tell you some more.

Current Mood: dirtydirty

Jul. 16th, 2008

08:48 pm - It's Just Me

Some days I wake up on the wrong side of the bed. Today was one of those days. I have felt a bit off all day. This did not help my workday, let me tell you. It did not. There, I told you. As for the rest of the day, it has been silent and introspective. Save for my "angry music" which I have been playing nonstop for three hours. Don't worry, my music doesn't get worse than Nickelback. I feel like a wimp just saying that.

I have a lot of things to do. Right now it seems overwhelming. I know, however, that the easiest way to cope with it would be to decide to do three things tomorrow and if I do not get them all done then oh well. If I do get them all done than oh joy. Coping skills, gotta love 'em.

Right now I just don't feel like coping. So, I guess I'll cope in the morning. Back to the angry music and inner dialog.

Current Mood: indescribableindescribable

Jul. 15th, 2008

09:19 pm - I Am A Quitter

I told my supervisor today that I will be quitting my job as of the second week of August. It was tough, but she was very understanding. I am glad I got that off my chest.

In other news, I'm up for hire. I have a lot of leads to look into. For once I am actually excited about job hunting. What changed? Well, let's just say a lot. I am a proactive person now. I go out and get things done. Sometimes I don't feel like doing stuff. But I just keep going, because proactive people don't give up that easily.

I have changed a lot in the past year. A lot. It's not that I am a whole different person or anything. No, it's more like I am finally myself. I am finally content with the notion that I am an ambitious woman who wants to have a career. That's who I am. No apologies pending if you don't like me that way.

Current Mood: goodgood

Jul. 8th, 2008

09:26 pm - Hello Again

I have been working on the first book I ever started writing. I began this book my freshman year of college. I wrote the first three quarters of it in college and the last quarter I churned out over the course of two weeks last year. I remember writing 38 pages in two days. I was shocked. I better not tell any of my college professors about that -- I asked for a few extensions on deadlines, you know.

This particular fantasy book needs work. The characters are inconsistent. Especially the main character who is also the narrator. He is a whiny, melodramatic teenage boy. He's nothing special at all. He's not a farmer either. He's only half a cliche. He is also a genuine coward. I mean, really, he's a coward about everything. Only problem with that is I have him doing some rather heroic things right off the bat. Not workable considering his personality. I am working to change that. I am trying to make him act out of fear rather than heroism to do something similar enough that it won't completely change the direction of the book, but will keep the character consistent.

Ah, the struggles of writing. What a joy to get back to it. Hello, it's a new day for my livejournal. I hope to keep it going this time and I hope I haven't lost too many readers in the past few months.

Current Mood: busybusy

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